aku yakin semua wanita dan pria pasti pernah mengalami hal ini. Aku sendiri tak luput dari hal itu. Tapi, berdasarkan survei yang ada kebanyakan wanita lah yang lebih pencemburu. Berdasarkan pengalaman sendiri, menurutku cemburu itu ada 3 level :
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letter from me to my love
Ga tahu kenapa dari kemarin aku merasa sendirian. Walaupun berbicara dengan banyak orang tetap aja hatiku tetap berkata kesepian. Mungkin akibat perkataan my bf yang sedikit menguncang dan membuyarkan ku dari mimpi. Terkadang aku bisa mempercayainya 100% tapi juga bisa meragukannya sama sekali. Aku bingung mengapa ia takut terhadap hal yang belum akan terjadi....
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Aku sendiri sebenarnya ga luput dari keraguan. Tapi apa yang dikatakannya benar, Jangan hanya berhayal dalam mimpi.... raih yang benar-benar ada di depan matamu. Di lain sisi aku merasa sakit karena dengan gampangnya ia mengatakan bahwa ia yakin suatu saat nanti aku dan dia tak akan bertemu dan tak bisa bersama. Ia akan memulai hidup baru dan mencoba melupakanku, bagaimana tidak air mataku mengalir dengan derasnya mendengar ungkapan yang keluar dari perkataanya sendiri.
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Sejak hari itu (tepatnya kemarin) aku jadi merasa canggung untuk menyapanya lagi lewat sebuah situs dimana aku dan dia selalu bercanda. Aku melihat dia online dan melakukan aktivitas biasanya seperti membalas message teman-temannya. Hanya satu yang tak ku temui.... ia sama sekali tak menegurku. Mungkin memang aku yang terlalu negative think. Yah....kadang-kadang aku terlalu over juga sih ahahaha. Terlalu banyak mikir apa dia masih sayang atau enggak. Akhirnya aku menyadari juga bahwa ia punya kehidupan pribadinya sendiri. Aku sepertinya terlalu membabi buta terhadapnya dan terlalu over.....cuma mau dia bicara denganku saja. Ia pun butuh kebebasan dan teman-temannya.
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Aku merasa orang yang paling bodoh karena mengira dia sedikit jahat. Padahal, kapan sih dia tidak menyediakan waktu untukku?! Hampir setiap hari ia selalu berbicara denganku walaupun pekerjaannya menumpuk setinggi gunung... ia tetap berbicara denganku dan tanpa sadar aku menghambat pekerjaannya itu ckckck. Sepertinya aku memang belum seutuhnya dewasa. Masih memikirkan diriku sendiri dan mau segala yang kuinginkan terpenuhi.
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Dia bukan superhero bukan juga penguasa dunia. Ia hanya orang yang mengerti aku dan mau menerimaku apa adanya. Tapi aku sendiri malah tak mempedulikan kebutuhannya. Jarang sekali aku mendengar nasihat yang ia berikan padahal itu bermanfaat dan dia menunjukkan bahwa ia sangat care ...... tapi aku terlalu keras kepala dengan pendapatku yang akhirnya menjerumuskan ku sendiri. alhasil ia merasa bersalah karena aku terjerumus.
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Aku minta maaf ya sama kamu........ karena aku belum bisa menjadi perempuan yang terbaik disampingmu. Banyak sekali kesalahan yang aku buat, tapi kamu terlalu baik. Aku memang keterlaluan dan aku sadar akan hal itu. Tapi dilain sisi aku ga mau pergi dari kamu. Just loving you always whatever i feel hurt. Aku akan mencoba mengubah sisi burukku ini menjadi yang terbaik. Bukan hanya untuk diriku sendiri,tapi juga buat kamu dan orang lain yang aku sayang. thanks for everything honey...
SHARE WHAT I FEEL
HOAHH..........just that i can say now....actually wanna always talk with ashu but i must go to school and study. Yep, that my habbit but really fun in school. Meet all my friend and study something new that i never know before. Sometimes my mind go so far from there when bell ringing for lunch. I just sleep in my desk and imagine i'm with ashu hehehe.... well, that really make me smile but sometimes make me wanna cry and sad why ashu so far from me. I really wanna beside him as a real couple, holding hands together, seeing eachother....all things that couple always do....i wanna do that all but just with my ashu, not another guy.
I hope that become true...really i wanna make that become true, just waiting time until that time come, so i must study hard and enjoy my life like this now. Hope god hear this prayer, i love ashu truthly and will make family with god around us coz we really nothing without god. God give me this feeling.. love feeling. Really lucky i am can feel that and...the person i love, love me too that really make me happy than anything.
Yeah... i know i still kid now and still kid in the line when i choosing decission but i'm sure my love for ashu is reality and really show who i am.. not hide that and just natural that i always do. I awake too that i'm not too beautiful like another girl..and dont hv special things in looks but i just show my love and write that from heart. If that time when i meet him come and he dont like with my look coz so ugly i will accept that and if he reject me coz of that i accept that too coz i know he can get more better than me. I just dont want make ashu dissapointed coz all my bad things hehehe...
but i dont knw that just "IF" but finally i trust ashu will not looking me coz of that...but coz of my heart. He always make me brave again and make me loving myself, loving all things that god give in me. I got so many learn from him and i lil more understand what people feel than before. And i try to think more older step by step and try to listen, coz i know i'm so stubborn.
LOVE YOU AND THAT NEVER CHANGE,,,,ALWAYS AND SO DEEP AND REALLY HAPPY GOT SO MUCH UR LOVE
TALKING WITH MY LOVE
I really glad can talk with him again....everyday hehehe
wtever so far i really love him...not like another couple i think ours love really truthly
hearing some word from him make me so happy
i dont know..but i can't stop it my heart always beat
really boring my life without him
we ever fighting and mad too... but ..not too long coz i really nothing without him
when he isn't come ,,,wow...i really sad so much and worried too.
I know this is crazy but i really feel that in my life now
I love him more than myself that i know..
i really affraid loose him,
I like holding his hands coz that make me calm and comfort
feel warm and safe but shy too ahahaha all mix
sometimes i cry why i can't hug him in real
i really miss him not like u miss ur boyfriend
coz he really special for me different than other
and the line when we falling in love really different than another couple too
maybe u will call me crazy falling in love with someone that i never meet in real
but...for me he is real
he is alive in this world too same world like me..
but,.....in another side. hehehe
we have to life in another country
but one love connecting i and him
my lovely ashley
i promise our dream will be come true soon hehehehe
i will meet u that my dream now
and see your smile
feeling your presence
laugh and keep your warm heart
take care you and our family
and together life in god line
thanks god u giving me this feeling in my life
i can feel love and falling in love with him
all impossible without god
i will do the best and dont want ur heart hurt god
i promise i will take care my love my family and helping people from sadness
as u do with me
u always there when i'm sad
u always there when i'm happy
u always everywhre in my life
i love u
god my lord
mom
dad
both my sis
both my family
allll my friend
coz i really statue without u all
i'm not me if you all not there
i'm not alive if you not in my life with me
^___^
THANKS FOR U LOVE
MY OWN
you so far but near in my heart
you make me smile and always make me calm
you make me share all my feeling
make me jumping to the blue sky
when u smile i feel so close
ur heart touch my deep heart
i shy just infront of u
what happen with me i dont know
and now when i relize
i really so much loving u honey
i dont know when it started
and when this feeling will the end
I get so much ur warm and cold
I feel ur presence and mind
just u in my heart and i'm sure now
I AM FALLING IN LOVE WITH YOU MY LOVE
when u smile i feel so close
ur heart touch my deep heart
i shy just infront of u
what happen with me i dont know
and now when i relize
i really so much loving u honey
i dont know when it started
and when this feeling will the end
I get so much ur warm and cold
I feel ur presence and mind
just u in my heart and i'm sure now
I AM FALLING IN LOVE WITH YOU MY LOVE
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